I haven’t really wrote on here for a while so let me just fill you in on what’s going on in my life. First of all I would like to say that I’m single that really didn’t change much. I’m starting to pill pop/smoke more. I do it mainly because its fun and makes me forget about some bad times. Anyways still in school the usual grades nothing special mhmm new friends? Miss one of my old friends though…sucks. Well I’m graduating soon didn’t think that would happen haven’t really thought of anything to after. I thought I would have died before getting that far, honestly. Oh well now I have to find something to do with life. Ahh man but I just feel like shit lately like I feel ugly really ugly like Im not good enough for anyone and I also feel dumb. I hardly ever feel this way but I guess I’ve been strong for too long. I didnt tell anyone about how feel at all because I don’t want to bring them down with me. So I keep my feelings bottled up and try my best to keep them hidden. I don’t think they would ever care either so its whatever. Well thats all I can pretty much say. Going to keep on drinking until I pass out. Peace.